The one mistake everybody remember and forget all the good

One mistake and you’re done. Its a sad reality about life and about how people see us.

Its always the way when we try pleasing others. We end up pleasing no one. Guilty as charged, im  one of those who forget and reflected upon the feeling of being judged and worst being talked about. I mean, its not a good feeling. It makes me paranoid and I dont like it. 

All the good that you’ve  done will go down the drain;

into oblivion. Im reminded of one qoute of a famous gestalt psychologist : 

   

        I do my thing and you do your thing.

I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,

And you are not in this world to live up to mine.

You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.

If not, it can't be helped.

Fritz Perls

This line said it all; we just cant please peaple, when we commit mistakes they seem to highight it and forget the good  things that we have done. If so then so be it. We cant do anything about it. Its time to move on to life and live . Pleasing others will just bring us to no where but exhausted and tired.

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Wait no more!

From bud

To bloom

I just posted this morning about buds and waiitng and now alas!  the bloom is here!
How very soon!
It’s over a week and now here she is. The other bud is still close,
Will check agin tomorrow.

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On buds and waiting

two buds of this unknown stinky

Up close

I posted the close up picture on Instagram with a caption that goes I hope this bud would open soon. Im so excited to see the beauty of that bud. I have been waiting for it to open since last week,I check on it daily and have seen the change everyday. Though I really can't tell the detailed growth but I felt it has changed from that daily checking.

Waiting, seems to be simple word. Defined by Webster"s dictionary as to stay in expectation of; to look forward expectantly. Wow. that's really deep. It may sound that simple but the process is complicated. In this fast world where everything seems to be all instant, waiting is something that is not appreciated by many. I am even guilty of waiting for someone who came late in a agreed appointment, I hate the feeling of wasting time. Well, there are a lot of complexities of waiting, different circumstances and different reactions for we are all unique individuals. But at the end of the day it all boils down to the word patience. This year I am praying for more patience and the ability to look forward expectantly as expectant as the way I waited for this bud to open. As expectantly as the Lord reveals to me daily in His word in my life.

My day involves a lot of waiting.More often I would wake up in the wee hours  of the morning, waiting for sleep to but when sleep seems impossible I just wait for the clock to strike 5:30 am. Hay signs of aging wahahaha. Ana jud basta magka tiguang na. Signs of aging. I want to age gracefully and just take it one step at a time. Cooking - wait for my favorite dish; you have to wait properly to be able to serve great tasting food than serving half cooked or food  cooked with out love. It does happen sometimes; when I lose my patience in cooking I end up with half cooked food which may not be tasty. Since Noli (my God-given husband) and I do intermitent fasting I do cook breakfast but eat only during lunch time and no longer cook for lunch. Then, wait for the time again to cook for dinner. Then wait for my favorite My Special Tatay teleserye, then wait or dinner and wait to sleep and it goes on and on daily.

Gardening has taught me to wait and the daily routine of life.And with His word that I wait also for every day -revealing His unconditional love for me and has been patient with me despite of and inspite of my short comings, and failures. He corrects me gently and lovingly guides me to new areas of growth.

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Grafting journey 101

Published by Hazel Funcion

Lilies of the Field Page

November 22, 2016

grafted moons by me

grafting is fun 

Grafting is a new world for me; at first it was scary and then after it survived I wanted to graft more. These are my baby moons; its true, like life I experienced failures; in grafting moons; its not always a guarantee that its a good graft; but it does not mean that I will stop grafting; but I graft again and again to achieve the goal.in life we learn, unlearn and relearn; learning is a life long process.Even tried grafting Christmas cactus, lol, hope one day to see cute flowers from this.

The scion will not survive if its not properly connected to the root stock, like us if we are not connected to our Lord which is our root stock we will not survive, apart from Him we are nothing. So how do we connect to the root stock; we accept that we have sinned ask forgiveness and accept Him as Lord and savior. And let His word guide us daily in our lives. Joshua 1:8-9 says Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Happy grafting, hope we can apply what Sir Lino Rom taught us.

Three years ago post from my facebook page. Bringing back the first moons that I grafted just applying what our speaker sir Lino taught us. I love to apply things learned as soon as possible while the motivation and the fire is still there. Three years ago, how time flies. I may have exerted effort and energy grafting them but there was a very slim chance of survival. That's why moons are not that cheap, they dont grow big, they die young. Even until now, but through the three years of grafting moons I have learned a couple of things that has helped me improve higher survival rate. Tried dragon fruit as root stock, pereskiopsis, bue boy and chichipe.

 First, the dragon fruit root stock is the most common since its not hard to find and its really cheap. You can ask from a neighborhood who grows dragon fruit or buy a couple of cuttings and then propagate it and use as root stock. The problem with dragon fruit is that its rots easily when over watered which could also kill the cactus.  The second root stock that I have used is the pereskiopsis, the smallest yet most terrible among the four. Why? because the spines are so thin and its really painful.Though its best to use when you have very tiny like seedlings and tiny cactus pups. Its also strong and can hold the cactus as it grows. But aesthetically speaking, its not my favorite. It looks odd, because when the cactus that was grafting grows in size, it looks like a lolipop. Next, the blue boy, this is my favorite among the columnars since it looks pretty with its blue silverish color when its under full sun. So far, its the best root stock that I have ever used, since it does not rot easily, its not so complicated to handle because the spines are not so disturbing as the pereskiopsis or the chichipe. The last root stock that I have used is the chichipe, I ike it coz its bigger among the four and a great chance for the cactus to grow much bigger since its a good rootstock as well. The problem is that, the long shiny and sharp spines could really hurt if you are not careful. Careless as I am, I must admit that grafting using chichipe was a struggle.

 grafted on dragon fruit 11/29/2016 ( Before)

March 3, 2017 After

grafted on pereskipsis

I thought I just used those four, and Im glad while skimming through group posts I saw this picture. wow!!!!!

grafted on opuntia

Made me realize. I have grafted using five different root stocks. wow. Isn't it amazing? Im just happy. and at the same time excited to revive my grafting journey. Hope it will bring me to exciting root stocks and also learn more about the art of grafting cactus.

See you on the next update!
God bless us all.

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Portulaca gilliesii addict

Started with one pot and now I have propagated this all time favorite succulent. Not hard to care and one of the hardy succulents; lots of sun and water And you’ll get the happy red color with her pretty pink flowers.

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A month of neglect

Yay! So much to do so little time. Let’s get it on!

Finding time to remove the weeds before it chokes the plant. 

Hmmmmm; need to  remove the roots; I plan to bring batches of plants inside and do the unweeding while watching tv.  ( Is there an unweeding word in the dictionary? wahahhhahaha I'not so good with words so pardon me for inventing words)I don't watch much tv but its better doing it inside the house; the heat might affect my unweeding battle.  Getting my hands dirty is a kind if therapy; the feel of dirt and soil and the relief if pulling each weed that starts to choke the poor plants. The weeds sucked the life out of the poor cacti, they crowded the nutrient rich dirt, preventing the new robust cactus and succulents.

The process reminds me of  the weeds in my heart.Worries, doubts, fears, hatred, resentment,insecurities and a lot more. Its choking my heart. And my own confidence and own strength would not suffice. I'm so human with all my frailties and need God to help me up root those weeds that slowly choked it. 

The process. Pulling weeds from the garden of my heart.

Its uncomfortable.

Its painful.

But it's time to slowly let it go.

Time for new growth.

Time for new life.

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