Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thoughts. Show all posts

26 September 2008

first broken heart....




Its one of the most things that I fear in life, to break my heart. Anyways no one died of a broken heart i comfort myself. Of course i know people wont want their hearts to be broken but there are events and things in our lives that happen for a reason and I believe they make us or break us. I broke my heart almost a year ago, it was somthing i chose to hide and I chose to keep to myself for I know announcing it would make it more harder to cope with. I cried in silence, alone in my room, in the stillness of the night, and there I felt God's hand comforting me, speaking to me, drying each tear from my eyes with His words. Only close people knew about it and I know they prayed for me, and I know it made the healing speedy.


Looking back, it still makes my tears fall and I cant stop them, im a better person, broken and healed by the loving hands of God.

21 February 2006

What a day!!!

I sit here staring at my computer.....silence....a couple of clicks to other sites and then what? silence... I hum a few lines or two, then click again ..... Then, wait for the call to make my day or break it. As a call center agent or for a customer service officer, I get used to scolded every hour and getting cursed and being yelled at by people I dont know and dont even care to know...(who cares?) Its just a package deal at least im paid to get all the yells and the cursing, I guess its a sort of a counselling here in this area that im into. I just hope that people would feel better after saying those words, I hope they feel happy and satisfied and contented.
Sometimes it just reveals the worst or the best of me, depending on the mood, but generally I fight back and retaliate. I mean, hey i just human, i get hurt with all those things you say just to hurt me. Then, I wake up to the reality that hey come on this is part of your job. In fairness to other callers, some are nice and well mannered.Sometimes or most often I go home with a heavy heart, I feel tired and sick of this routine for almost seven years of my working here. I have no choice, even though they say I got the worst job in the world Im just proud of it. I understand why people get mad when they dont have dial tones or when they have no internet connection, of course they pay for it and they deserve the best best service we could give. But there is no such thing as a perfect system, there are system failures that would cause such and then the calls start floodin'.

The world has become a race, that people have lost the patience to wait they start yelling and worst shouting and ended up saying words I know they might regret in the end. Well, the more I get bombarded with all of these negative truths I have lost my sensitiveness, I dont care if you shout or yell, if u can wait good, if not, then better. But, not that bad as you think I am, but I guess its what they call coping. Coz' if i dont sweet lemon or i dont sour grape, I dont know. Im like doing a free verse poem here, just types what ever comes to mind, a way of releasing......What a day!!!!

20 February 2006

My yahoo email impersonated...

Yes, it was impersonated. My officemate asked me if I sent her an email message through yahoo, I told her I didnt send her any mail today. When I looked on her pc the subject was: Gwd; Protected Message and then there was an attachment file" F*ck her.exe". Oh my God! What if that thing who sent through my email have distributed that disgusting email to all my friends on my address book. I have to do something about this. I have emailed ahoo about the incident.

To all my friends pls immediately delete that suspcious email if u recieved it from me. I did not mail that. It might be some virus or something.Im really sorry about this inconvenience.

God bless!!!