On buds and waiting

two buds of this unknown stinky

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I posted the close up picture on Instagram with a caption that goes I hope this bud would open soon. Im so excited to see the beauty of that bud. I have been waiting for it to open since last week,I check on it daily and have seen the change everyday. Though I really can't tell the detailed growth but I felt it has changed from that daily checking.

Waiting, seems to be simple word. Defined by Webster"s dictionary as to stay in expectation of; to look forward expectantly. Wow. that's really deep. It may sound that simple but the process is complicated. In this fast world where everything seems to be all instant, waiting is something that is not appreciated by many. I am even guilty of waiting for someone who came late in a agreed appointment, I hate the feeling of wasting time. Well, there are a lot of complexities of waiting, different circumstances and different reactions for we are all unique individuals. But at the end of the day it all boils down to the word patience. This year I am praying for more patience and the ability to look forward expectantly as expectant as the way I waited for this bud to open. As expectantly as the Lord reveals to me daily in His word in my life.

My day involves a lot of waiting.More often I would wake up in the wee hours  of the morning, waiting for sleep to but when sleep seems impossible I just wait for the clock to strike 5:30 am. Hay signs of aging wahahaha. Ana jud basta magka tiguang na. Signs of aging. I want to age gracefully and just take it one step at a time. Cooking - wait for my favorite dish; you have to wait properly to be able to serve great tasting food than serving half cooked or food  cooked with out love. It does happen sometimes; when I lose my patience in cooking I end up with half cooked food which may not be tasty. Since Noli (my God-given husband) and I do intermitent fasting I do cook breakfast but eat only during lunch time and no longer cook for lunch. Then, wait for the time again to cook for dinner. Then wait for my favorite My Special Tatay teleserye, then wait or dinner and wait to sleep and it goes on and on daily.

Gardening has taught me to wait and the daily routine of life.And with His word that I wait also for every day -revealing His unconditional love for me and has been patient with me despite of and inspite of my short comings, and failures. He corrects me gently and lovingly guides me to new areas of growth.