17 May 2019

Choleric-melancholy me



The Strategist
The Choleric-Melancholy combination is driven by two needs. Their primary need is to get results. The secondary need is to do things right. Either need may dominate their behavior depending on the requirements of the situation. When the Choleric and the Melancholy tendencies are combined, it produces a result-oriented, detailed person, who plans and pushes their way through life.
The Choleric-Melancholy is more detail oriented and sensitive than the other Choleric combinations. This combination naturally likes developing a strategy to accomplish a goal.
The Choleric-Melancholy is a result-oriented, detailed person who is not interested in social involvement. They are driven by a strong will to achieve their detailed plan. They can be direct, blunt, and forceful, yet at times show great sensitivity toward others. They can be both domineering and compassionate (they can be a Lion or a Lamb). They are easily annoyed, quickly aroused, but easily calmed.
They like to initiate change. The Choleric-Melancholy likes to solve problems and make decisions and are actually quite capable of doing so. They can usually see a creative solution quickly with a only small amount of information. When committed to accomplishing a goal they are insightful and creative.
They function best when they collect facts and have alone time to think and develop a plan of action. In the process of developing their plan they will ask direct and detailed questions. They prefer work to involvement with people. The Choleric-Melancholy is a frequently occurring combination.

Guess what happened this shot? I got them all wet. wahahahaaha. Im just glad there was no serious damage done. I just placed the Bible and the notebook where it was safe and was able to use it ate it has dried.

16 May 2019

On blooms and waiting

twinning gymnocalycium blooms

Waited for months to see her pretty blooms but nothing came out. She surprised me with her twin blooms when I came home from Cabadbaran. Such a sweet pretty gymno. Cactus love and plant love. Reflected on the word waiting. More often than not we hate to wait. Me. Traffic jams and waiting in line is somewhat annoying, maybe because I hate waiting and for me its a waste of precious time. I have so much things to do with so little time, i get impatient and grumpy and that made my day. 

James 1:19-20 My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, 20 because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. read it to day and I'm so hopeful that I will be able to apply what the word of God gave me today. Traffic jams happen because there are really a lot people in the streets in rush hours,  sometimes road rage happen because one driver wont give way to other drivers thus, causing much more damage and delays to those who are also driving.

When I see Slow Down road signs, its an indication that it's a dangerous road. But in life's  journey we don't see them around.The word of God reminds us, that's why reading His word as our life's manual and applying it. Guilty as charged, and i 
it was a crime to read God's word and not apply may be I'd be sentenced for life imprisonment. But by God's grace I'd be able to do it, it may not be perfect and with flying colors but I desire to pass. And be as pretty as these twinning blooms.


15 May 2019

The one mistake everybody remember and forget all the good




One mistake and you’re done. Its a sad reality about life and about how people see us.
Its always the way when we try pleasing others. We end up pleasing no one. Guilty as charged, im  one of those who forget and reflected upon the feeling of being judged and worst being talked about. I mean, its not a good feeling. It makes me paranoid and I dont like it. 
All the good that you’ve  done will go down the drain;
into oblivion. Im reminded of one qoute of a famous gestalt psychologist : 
   


        I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.
If not, it can't be helped.
Fritz Perls

This line said it all; we just cant please peaple, when we commit mistakes they seem to highight it and forget the good  things that we have done. If so then so be it. We cant do anything about it. Its time to move on to life and live . Pleasing others will just bring us to no where but exhausted and tired.

05 February 2019

Wait no more!

From bud

To bloom

I just posted this morning about buds and waiitng and now alas!  the bloom is here!
How very soon!
It’s over a week and now here she is. The other bud is still close,
Will check agin tomorrow.

On buds and waiting

two buds of this unknown stinky

Up close



I posted the close up picture on Instagram with a caption that goes I hope this bud would open soon. Im so excited to see the beauty of that bud. I have been waiting for it to open since last week,I check on it daily and have seen the change everyday. Though I really can't tell the detailed growth but I felt it has changed from that daily checking.

Waiting, seems to be simple word. Defined by Webster"s dictionary as to stay in expectation of; to look forward expectantly. Wow. that's really deep. It may sound that simple but the process is complicated. In this fast world where everything seems to be all instant, waiting is something that is not appreciated by many. I am even guilty of waiting for someone who came late in a agreed appointment, I hate the feeling of wasting time. Well, there are a lot of complexities of waiting, different circumstances and different reactions for we are all unique individuals. But at the end of the day it all boils down to the word patience. This year I am praying for more patience and the ability to look forward expectantly as expectant as the way I waited for this bud to open. As expectantly as the Lord reveals to me daily in His word in my life.

My day involves a lot of waiting.More often I would wake up in the wee hours  of the morning, waiting for sleep to but when sleep seems impossible I just wait for the clock to strike 5:30 am. Hay signs of aging wahahaha. Ana jud basta magka tiguang na. Signs of aging. I want to age gracefully and just take it one step at a time. Cooking - wait for my favorite dish; you have to wait properly to be able to serve great tasting food than serving half cooked or food  cooked with out love. It does happen sometimes; when I lose my patience in cooking I end up with half cooked food which may not be tasty. Since Noli (my God-given husband) and I do intermitent fasting I do cook breakfast but eat only during lunch time and no longer cook for lunch. Then, wait for the time again to cook for dinner. Then wait for my favorite My Special Tatay teleserye, then wait or dinner and wait to sleep and it goes on and on daily.

Gardening has taught me to wait and the daily routine of life.And with His word that I wait also for every day -revealing His unconditional love for me and has been patient with me despite of and inspite of my short comings, and failures. He corrects me gently and lovingly guides me to new areas of growth.

31 January 2019

Huernia schneideriana

 huernia schneideriana 

One of the rain or shine stinkies, not hard to care and 
can be propagated through cuttings. Flowers will not mature 
if this stinky lack either sunlight or water. If pkaced in
the best/desired  location of the plant the flowers will be inlimited year round.
Enjoy planting!