21 June 2010
18 June 2010
16 June 2010
blah blah blah....
I just want to get tired and drown myself with all the work in the world. After all the exciting things That I have done over the weekend, I didnt expected that this would be the price that I have to pay.
Wew! I hate this. I hate when things get to this point in my life. I have done my part but it seems its not working and my efforts seemed nothing but junk. Worthless, useless, nada... WHy does it have to be like this. Im sad.... really sad... deeply sad. I want to work till I cant work no more and end up waking up again for work. I hope I have the shield so that I dont have to so balat sibuyas.
I have searched for verses to help me cope:
Proverbs 15:13 " A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit."
Philippians 4:13 " I can do everything through Him who gives me strentgh."
Wew! I hate this. I hate when things get to this point in my life. I have done my part but it seems its not working and my efforts seemed nothing but junk. Worthless, useless, nada... WHy does it have to be like this. Im sad.... really sad... deeply sad. I want to work till I cant work no more and end up waking up again for work. I hope I have the shield so that I dont have to so balat sibuyas.
I have searched for verses to help me cope:
Proverbs 15:13 " A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit."
Philippians 4:13 " I can do everything through Him who gives me strentgh."
In the shelter of thy wings...
" in the shelter of thy wings
I will hide in thee
hide in thee
theres no other place that I would rather be
than in the shelter of thy wings..."
The song that my heart is singing right now...
Words, are just words
better said than done.
BUt the Lord gave me a promise on 2 Corinthians 4
"Therefore do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away,
yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and
momentary troubles are achieving us for an eternal glory that far outweighs them all."
Thats a reminder for me today, though I may have troubles, but they are just momentary.
I will hide in thee
hide in thee
theres no other place that I would rather be
than in the shelter of thy wings..."
The song that my heart is singing right now...
Words, are just words
better said than done.
BUt the Lord gave me a promise on 2 Corinthians 4
"Therefore do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away,
yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and
momentary troubles are achieving us for an eternal glory that far outweighs them all."
Thats a reminder for me today, though I may have troubles, but they are just momentary.
11 June 2010
Wow! Wanna ride with them?
Wow, grandpa do you have room for me?
More passengers infront please....!
WOw, nice outfit
its refreshing when you get a free ride...09 June 2010
No matter how much i try....
Wow, I never felt this tired this week. I went home early last monday and tuesday and now I have decided in my heart to stay longer (even if my feet felt so tired and wanted to embrace the comfort of my dark room). No matter how much I try, the pile of work just accumulate every single day. No matter how much I try my much is never enough. Im not not going to catch up with the work load. Im not alone, almost all of the people here feel the same, were on the same boat and at times, only crying in silence is the best way to cope.
Im just glad that, even when I feel so hopeless, Im glad that im special to someone eyes, Im the apple of God's eyes. Im able to pound the keys of the keyboard to express everything that even words cant express. Im coping and Im embracing God's promise, His love His care and I just have to listen somewhere in the corner of my heart is the light of hope that always gave me the comfort despite the busy and confusing world we have.
Im hungry, I know when I get home theres no food on the table. I miss the comfort of home, missed mother's cooking and the laughter of brothers and sisters, missed my family. I have to remind myself of God's promise that " I can do anyhting through Christ who gives me strength"
Tomorrow is another and another day to be a blessing.
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Zelmarq
Im just glad that, even when I feel so hopeless, Im glad that im special to someone eyes, Im the apple of God's eyes. Im able to pound the keys of the keyboard to express everything that even words cant express. Im coping and Im embracing God's promise, His love His care and I just have to listen somewhere in the corner of my heart is the light of hope that always gave me the comfort despite the busy and confusing world we have.
Im hungry, I know when I get home theres no food on the table. I miss the comfort of home, missed mother's cooking and the laughter of brothers and sisters, missed my family. I have to remind myself of God's promise that " I can do anyhting through Christ who gives me strength"
Tomorrow is another and another day to be a blessing.
read more....
Zelmarq
06 June 2010
Killing the time....
Im annoyed
I know im impatient
maybe self centered
always wanted things my way
now im here
pounding the keys
killing the time
hoping its 10pm......
killing the time...
posting anything
surfing...
searching...
looking for something...
just killing the time...
but why?
it seems the clock just got stuck there...
Patience...patience... patience...
I feel helpless
Im sad
Im sad
Im bored
Just killing the time...
here busy doing nothing...
Zelmarq
A sure stress buster...
Bacolod Inasal in Cagayan de Oro
no doubt a sure stress buster
I was about to have my tantrums, hehehe
Ate this with my bare hands.....wow!
Inasal means......
A hiligaynon term which means barbecue....grilled
Zelmarq
crochet and patience....
Last thursday and friday I got under the weather, embraced all the pillows on my bed and the stuffed toys beside me, with cough and the colds making my tears flow like rain, wew, I know im exaggerating but its hard getting sick like this. Mama, is far, and my family is Cebu, wow, what a pity. Wish they were here , they could take care of me, feed me, cook soup for me and even just scold me for being such a hard headed 34 year old single, work addict lady.
Well, sad, truth, Im work addict, even if I felt bad wednesday evening, i brought a paper bag full of work load from the office, of course it was due this friday and I would not want cristy to do the job for me, I finished it just in time I left the papers on cristy's table and when I went outside got saoked with the pouring rain ( oh no, not again, another reason why the stay in bed got longer than expected).
Thursday morning, I just cant stay there and lay my head like I were dead, this cant be happening, I have to do something, even with the head pounding hard with pain and the colds making me cry and the cough making me bark like a guard dog, I have to do something, with the boring tv on, I tried looking for something to do.
Eureka!, found my crochet things, felt that I have missed my crochets, my threads, my colorfull threads. I started, I thought I forgot how to make crochet purses but there I was glad that the chore jut went swiftly as if were already encoded in my head with the coordination of my fingers, the crochet needle and the two strands of thread. Patience, hmmmm, patience is a virtue, and for the past days I have seen I slowly lost my patience, slowly, and slowly I realized I have dragged my body to its limit and abused and now I am reaping the consequence.
What exactly is patience? defined by Encarta as a capacity for waiting: the ability to endure waiting, delay, or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset, or to persevere calmly when faced with difficulties. Patience is a skill that we practice and the more we are able to endure without frustration the more patience we have.
Patience, crochet.
Slowly, with each single stitch, I can make my crochet purse.
Thank God for the realization.
I agree, things happen for a reason. My getting sick happened for a reason ( for me to get some sleep and some rest).
Zelmarq
05 June 2010
Rainy season coming.....
"Rain drops keep fallin' on my head".......
I was confined in the four corners of my room for two unable to report for work due to severe headache, colds and cough. Spent the two days watching tv, KAPUSO or KAPAMILYA, DIZ iz It or SHowtime? Eat bulaga or wowoweee, i just jumped from one channel to the other but felt the KAPUSO team is closer to my heart. And now Im well and here for praise and worship practice but theres no one and now Im stuck with the rain so intense outside making it impossible for me to go home.
I was confined in the four corners of my room for two unable to report for work due to severe headache, colds and cough. Spent the two days watching tv, KAPUSO or KAPAMILYA, DIZ iz It or SHowtime? Eat bulaga or wowoweee, i just jumped from one channel to the other but felt the KAPUSO team is closer to my heart. And now Im well and here for praise and worship practice but theres no one and now Im stuck with the rain so intense outside making it impossible for me to go home.
Its hard that the restaurant owner downstairs came and begged if he could bring his supplies for safe keeping afraid that the flood would strike and give devastating damage like the last flood that happened last January2009.
"Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain......"
I could just hum hum and sing a few rain songs to chase the rain away, and now it subsided giving me the assurance that its safe and no flood is coming and preventing me from going home.
January 2009 flood
Me (with pink jacket) with Rachel and Wendy
enjoying the chocolatety street.....
smiling always......
